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Thursday, April 9, 2009

Change I want See

I read something today, a quote from Gandhi of all people. It's not like I'm reading weird writing from India, but I thought it was pretty cool, or at least to me it means a lot. Gandhi once wrote "We must be the change we want to see". Does that ever ring true.

There are things I want different in my life. I want a better marriage, a deeper love with the Better Half, better relationship with my kids, a better person all around. It's not that I feel I am a bad person, I just know I can be a better person to the people that are closest to me they deserve it. More so now then ever as they have lived with me when I was not being who I really can be. If I want these changes, I have to be the change I want to see. It starts with me, no one else to blame, no excuses, it starts with me, I need to be the change I want to see. I will only see these changes in others when they see it in me. This makes sense to me.

signed the Other Half

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Why

Why is it so hard to work things out when you love someone?

signed the other half

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Why the Time from Around the World

I travel a lot and conduct business all over the place and have people working for me in Germany, England, France, Sweden, Brazil, China, Thailand, Australia, and India (and maybe a few more places, I think I'll be taking responsibility for some stuff in Japan soon) so time is always on my mind. Or the work that fills the time, the questions, issues the To Do's that are not done yet in all these different places. Sometimes, work doesn't end because as I end my day here in Michigan, some one is starting theirs some where else and has questions, answers, issues that need to be tended too.

You've got to love the global economy. The Better Half likes it, the global economy, because it does prompt me to travel and I will be taking a two week trip to Asia next week. It gives her a bit of a break from me, I think she needs it. No, I know she needs it. I'm not traveling as much as much as I use to (cutting back and limiting travel -Automotive is one tough industry right now), so she is long over due for a break from me. I'll post anything I see that is cool/different as I'll be spending a weekend in Bangkok. New places are always interesting and I look forward to exploring it, love Thai food so this should be good. Hey post anything interesting that you might see from the Better Half while I'm gone.....lol.

And yes, I will be returning with an extra suit case stuffed with Coach purses and stuff like that, any requests?


signed the other half

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Take a Nap or Get Busy?

After running around this morning (weight watchers, breakfast, produce shopping, picking up new tags for the car) I find myself debating taking a nap or tackling the long list of To Do's that are always in my head. Procrastination, I hate it. It is something about myself the drives me nuts and I can't seem to over come it. Would taking a nap mean another wasted day, I know I will feel that way if I do take a nap. Today is nice day out, so I should get out there, enjoy the sunshine and feel good about getting something done. But then a nap sure would feel good now..............need to change subjects.

So I go to Weight Watchers. At first I thought, damn I'm a guy and that is woman thing to do..... Wrong, I need help changing my life style, how I eat and I do I like to eat things (note to Better Half - get your mind out of the gutter), not into cookies and cake, but give me a big steak, great pasta with creamy sauce, a good hot bowl of chili.....that kinda of good stuff and lots of it. I just have to learn to eat less good things. So at WW this morning, feeling like, damn, I don't want to be here, this is too hard, I can do this later, My Better Half said something in the meeting. And she nailed it when she said "it sucks".....loosing weight sucks.....your up, your down, some one looses more, and you try and don't loose as much. It's a great way to beat the shit out of yourself with out throwing a punch. But it is something I need to do, just like all the other To Do's. This is one of harder ones as it will take a long time and this past week I've realized, it will never be done. Which is maybe why I was thinking, why bother or tell yourself you'll do int next year when it will be easier. What I mean is, that even when I get down to where I want to be, I will always have to work at it. "It Sucks". I have lost weight, almost 20 lbs, that is pretty good and I need to think about what I've done, not how much more I need "To Do". The Better Half is also loosing weight with me. I'm glad she is helping me as I couldn't do it by myself. It's the procrastination thing, I can always loose it next year, well next year has been occurring for the last 20 years and I have found that the number just keeps getting bigger, that's not healthy and not good for me and this has an impact on those around me. I use to be so much more active, doing things, getting things done, burning off this restless energy inside of me. Over time, I feel I let myself go, to much time at work, not enough time looking after myself, my marriage, my kids, thinking that I can fix it/work on it next year. Procrastination, do what is easiest......I guess I took a long nap and now I find that I have wasted a lot of my life. Maybe not wasted, but missed out for sure. I missed out on loving my Better Half the way she deserved which in turn, means I've missed out on the love she has in her to give to me. It's hard to re-invigorate and do the things that I should have been doing all along. So I need to look after myself better, still eat the good stuff, but not as much, look after the Better Half better and tell the kids I love them.

Back to the nap, not happening, going to go out side enjoy the sunshine and put up the new track lighting in the den so the Better Half can see what she is doing in there .... or maybe it's better she does that stuff in the dark (wink). Besides she just went shopping so I won't be able to get her to nap with me. Dang it and she is wearing that black bra that makes me want to take her up stairs and eat some good stuff.....I mean.....nap.......

Best to go clean up the yard and put up the track lights.


signed the other half


Thursday, April 2, 2009

My 2 Cents

Well, I didn't think the better half would so easily post something. I'm glad she did as she has good things to say and sometimes they are about me. I hope her words come easy and yes once in a while we need to question something the other has said and sometimes we need to just think about it and not read more into it. The adult disclaimer should be shut off as this will not be a porn oriented blog. May be some cute sexy tasteful pics of the better half (she is very creative and good at this) Sorry no nudity here (don't want to scare everyone way) and this is not what this is about. We'll see where this goes as it's "Another Try" at a lot of things, blogging, talking, listening, communicating, sharing, and most of all falling more in love with the better half. This is what it's about.

signed the other half